Monday, November 16, 2009


Here I am at the computer, I haven't woken up the kiddos yet for the day. I've decided to update my blog for the moment before the day starts and gets away from me.

This past weekend I found myself remembering my father more. This past Friday marked a month since he passed away. On Saturday I went out to the cemetery to visit his grave site and found myself not wanting to leave. I watered the grass with my tears as I put my hand on the grass as to reach out to him. I'm still in awe that he has passed away. I'm still adjusting to the fact that I'll never be able to see him again nor give him a hug. I'll never be able to have a normal conversation with him. I'll never see him taking pictures of my kids at their birthday parties. I'll never hear that hard knock at my back door when he would stop by unexpectedly, I would go to the front window only to find that he had backed up into my drive-way with his black dodge truck and he was standing at my side door. When someone has been taken away from you all of a sudden, you long for them all that much more. Some days I find myself stronger than other days, I guess that's to be expected they say. While at the cemetery on Saturday I also visited my daughters grave site. My husband and I had twin daughters that we lost back in 1996 so I visited them and also visited my grandfathers site as well. What a beautiful day it was on Saturday all in all, thank you Lord for that!

Yesterday marked a month since we actually found my father passed away. It was two days after he passed away that we found him alone at his home. And now today it's his birthday. He would have been 63 years old.

I've chosen a song for you. It's called "What a Wonderful World" by Louis Armstrong. This is the song we danced to at my wedding. We both love to dance.
I love you dad, I always have and I always will. You will always be remembered!
So...Wonderful Father, I'm thinking of you, missing you dearly and still dancing with you in my heart.
Love you Daddy~
Me and my daddy dancing in the kitchen.
Feel free to click on any picture for a better view.


  1. Oh wow. I am so sorry you lost your beloved father. Mine is 73 and I can't imagine life without him. What a beautiful tribute you wrote about your father.

  2. What a beautiful post sharing with us the most treasured and intimate moments with your dad. What a blessing he was to you!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  3. i am sorry for you.frIENDLY CATHERINE

  4. I tried to send this in a reply e-mail, but you must not have an e-mail reply on your account. So...I wanted to send it anyway. :)

    Thanks for your very sweet message. Sometimes I wonder why I keep blogging...not knowing if it's really being read and/or being helpful. Then, I get a word of encouragement (like yours) and it drives me on to keep blogging the things I feel God lays upon my heart. :) So, thank you! I need to get back in the swing of blogging more least once a week. I thought when I started staying home (instead of working outside of my home) that I would have so much more time on my hands. Not so much! Instead, I wonder how I ever had time to go to work before. lol :)

    Praying that you're feeling the peace and comfort only God can give during this difficult time. This makes it even harder to be still before God...when our minds are so busy and full of the things going on in our life. It can consume us, but it's the best time to just "be" and "be still" before the only One who can truly give us comfort. I think I need to write a whole post on Being Still. :) Not because I'm some expert, but because I believe it soooo important. I am learning more and applying it more to my life as time goes by.

    Hugs and Blessings,

  5. Amy, I have wanted to email you privately. I did not have an email addy. You ask me about blogging... I comment... Everyone enjoys reading comments. If they join my blog, I join their blog. If you find a blog you really enjoy make sure and comment. Adding people to your blogroll will most likely get them to add you to their blogroll as well. Add someones button on your blog, they will usually add your button too.

    I am so sorry for the loss of your Daddy and Angel Blessings. I know the hurt of both. I pray for your Peace and Comfort. I have missed you. Email me anytime. Blessings my friend. Audrey